Am i weird for acting this way?

finally free now that's a blessing ... but don't u feel normal ... pardon me but i suffer from same .. been yrs .. see first and foremost .. don't step into anything that's ure not ready for .. knowing u can have mood swings .. will simply spoil it for u .. instead try and look for people those who will understand u for u and are willing to accept u no matter how u are .. schizo are not crazies .. they are bit superior in terms of there feeling .. as they purely feel whats naturally comes to them .. nor pretending to be someone .. if u think u wanna sleep with someone .. go ahead .. don't stop ya self but protect ya self ... see i don't really support religion .. as in today's date we have countless .. pretty much like law for keeping people in order .. which is bullshit .. when it comes to living life .. religion is a choice .. not a duty .. it set rules for people who wanna follow .. but never said it'll harm if u don't .. im a guy and i think i know exactly how u feel ... except my awakening is yet to happen .. which im not looking forward too .. i have more fun with my imagination then normal people can ever get close too ;) wink .. if u believe in god then believe in aliens too .. as no one ever has see any of em .. we as human race just like to speculate ... would like to know u more if ure interested thanx ,...